"Scars are souvenirs you never lose" Never has that line meant so much to me. Never did it ring more true. And while they may fade over time, and may not always be visible to others, my scars are a constant reminder to me. "The past is never far" At first I counted days gone …
Life After Brain Surgery: Perspective
Recently, I ended up back in the hospital with the scare of another infection. Thankfully, all the tests came back fine. Docs think I was just still in recovery mode and could possibly be catching a cold or something so they sent me home. But before leaving, the Chief Resident of Neurosurgery gave me a …
Life After Brain Surgery: Memory (Part 1)
I cried again tonight. This time for something that I realized had been happening and what I realize is happening now. So the period of time that I struggled for answers to my health problems was about 3 and a half years. It was June 16, 2015 that I woke up with a headache that …
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Life After Brain Surgery: No Work
Well my happy little bubble of expectations was burst pretty early this morning. I was informed that work and my desire to go back to the gym were not options as of right now. At least not until next month. Bummer. I realize it's been just over 3 weeks. And I realize I still have …
Life After Brain Surgery: My Strength
24 hours after my first surgery, I was sitting in the ICU alone. It was a quiet afternoon and I was feeling pretty good for just having surgery. But it took just few moments in time to totally change my mood and consequently set off every alarm and bring not just my nurse but ALL …
Recovery is Slow, but Happening
The hardest part of recovering from these surgeries is not knowing what is normal and what is not. I have no time-line to go by. I read several different things, most saying 18 months is the average complete healing time for MVD surgery. But what about 3 surgeries in 6 weeks!? Each day I struggle …
Life After Brain Surgery
A week ago my family was all meeting up at a parking garage outside of University of Maryland Medical Center Baltimore, gathering our belongings necessary for the long day ahead, and rushing inside to get to where I needed to be by my 5:30 appt time. Sadly, the hospital sent us on a long run …
Too Much
I guess I was just too much. Too loving. Too strong. Too resilient. Some people don't like that. Some people can't handle that. I guess I was just too much. Too much woman for a small minded man. Too strong for a weak man. Too much of myself for a man still searching for himself. …
Knowledge of My Ignorance
I found a new book recently that is a daily devotional for intellectuals. It offers various readings each day presenting facts from the seven fields of knowledge. While reading the other night from the area of Philosophy, I came across an interesting idea presented by Socrates. Without the exact quote, the book presented it like …