Lost in a Sea of Words
I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. I don't know what is what anymore. I can't go back to the old me. I've grown and changed through my experiences. So I can't go back to that girl. But this woman I've become seems …
Dear Diary, I've been in a really low place lately. I'm mad at myself for missing a day of writing. But yesterday I was so damn emotional. I cried for hours. This stupid depression is serious. Last night I couldn't take it anymore. I feel so alone sometimes. I know I've been through some tough …
You guys, I did the things today. Lots of things. Sure I overslept and missed an appointment this morning. But I made the best of the snow day with the kids. I even cooked lunch. Cooked!! And cooked dinner. Did dishes. Got the kids to get the Christmas tree down and worked on a few …
I cried again tonight. This time for something that I realized had been happening and what I realize is happening now. So the period of time that I struggled for answers to my health problems was about 3 and a half years. It was June 16, 2015 that I woke up with a headache that …
Continue reading "Life After Brain Surgery: Memory (Part 1)"
As I mentioned in my last post, sometimes we go through things we don't understand so that we can help someone else with their struggles. Since I was diagnosed with trigeminal neuralgia (and later glossopharyngeal neuralgia), I found several support groups on Facebook. It was incredibly helpful for me to interact with others who were …
Well I missed a day of writing. I had set a goal to write a post every day but I missed a day. Oh well. I have to give myself a break. I am allowed days of rest. I am allowed to lay in bed and veg out watching mindless television or teen dramas on …
I never knew this would be so hard. I never imagined that I would be celebrating such little accomplishments. I am currently crying a mixture of happy and sad tears. Of course I'm still sad because of what I've been through, but happy because each little thing I do is a miniature miracle to me. …
Well my happy little bubble of expectations was burst pretty early this morning. I was informed that work and my desire to go back to the gym were not options as of right now. At least not until next month. Bummer. I realize it's been just over 3 weeks. And I realize I still have …
I have read many comments and posts in my support groups where people return to work a few weeks after MVD surgery. OK, I can sorta see that happening, if one only has that 1 single surgery. But am I weak if I still need more time after my 3 surgeries? I mean I wanted …
