I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. I don’t know what is what anymore.
I can’t go back to the old me. I’ve grown and changed through my experiences. So I can’t go back to that girl. But this woman I’ve become seems to be bitter and angry over the experiences. So who the hell am I supposed to be?
I don’t want to be bitter. I don’t want to be forever angry. I want to enjoy my life. I want to be care free once again. But how!? Instead of being sick and in pain all the time, I want to enjoy life. However, now I’m full of extra parts and a list of things I can’t do, or take, or eat, or whatever. How can I be care free with restrictions?
I’m so over this. I wanted my life back. But now I’ve got a whole new life that I need to figure out. I’m mad. I’m sad. I’m frustrated. And I’m not sure who I am anymore. I have to wonder; is this worse?