Life After Brain Surgery: Who Am I?

I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. I don’t know what is what anymore.

I can’t go back to the old me. I’ve grown and changed through my experiences. So I can’t go back to that girl. But this woman I’ve become seems to be bitter and angry over the experiences. So who the hell am I supposed to be?

I don’t want to be bitter. I don’t want to be forever angry. I want to enjoy my life. I want to be care free once again. But how!? Instead of being sick and in pain all the time, I want to enjoy life. However, now I’m full of extra parts and a list of things I can’t do, or take, or eat, or whatever. How can I be care free with restrictions?

I’m so over this. I wanted my life back. But now I’ve got a whole new life that I need to figure out. I’m mad. I’m sad. I’m frustrated. And I’m not sure who I am anymore. I have to wonder; is this worse?

One Reply to “Life After Brain Surgery: Who Am I?”

  1. Allow the anger and sadness. Own it. It’s yours to have. By recognizing it, you’ve done the hardest part, realizing that it’s there. Breathe it in, feel the emotions, then exhale them. You know who you are, you’re not gone, you’ve just been a little lost ♥️

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